My
crooked mind some time wonders into unfamiliar territory of worrying so much
about issues I cannot control. Some time, they overwhelm me, leaving me very
exhausted . Can you imagine that ,I worry so much about dying !, I don’t want
to die , but I have a premonition that , my days are not very far.
First
am told , that death is inevitable , you have no control over it , it will
come when it wants. The kings ,
presidents and the very rich in the society do die, then why worry about it. I
need to explain where this worry comes from. I had this aunt of mine , who was very good to me.
She used to live with us for quite some time . Indeed, since I was born , I
have always been with her . she used to bath me , feed me , and tell me good stories about the toad and the hyenas. We could go
shopping with her , and generally she was very protective of us. My parents have always been busy with the
business in town , hence our aunt has always been there for us.
I
will never forget that, Monday evening , two years age. The weekend had been
very interesting. My parents had gone away for the weekend, they told us they
would be travelling to Nairobi for a
business trip but , our aunt would take us for an outing in a local restaurant
for lunch on Saturday. Saturday came and it went well. Our aunt, after the
outing brought us back to the house, in the evening she prepared dinner for us , and thereafter we
went to bed. Sunday , came , my sister ,
me and our aunt , we went to church , in
the neighborhood. After church we came back home , for lunch and later in the evening dinner was served.
My parents had been delayed in Nairobi ,
but they promised they would come by the following Tuesday. On Monday , it was
a school day, our aunt woke us early in the morning to prepare for school.
After the breakfast, our aunt bid
us goodbye , as we boarded the van which takes us to
school.
In
the evening , we boarded our usual van
to take us back home , after a
busy day in school. We reached our house, the gate was locked as usual, so I
rung the gate bell for quite some
time , but there was no respond. Our
aunt , was nowhere to be seen, usually , every school day, in the evening , we
always find our aunt waiting for us at the gate. Anyway so far , there was no
panic , since in the past, sometime , our aunt had delayed in opening the gate.
After around 10 minutes of waiting , I decided to jump
over our fence , as it was not very high.
The front door was locked as usual , so I went to try the back door,
this is the kitchen door. It was open ,
I entered , my aunt was not in the kitchen , but she was sleeping on the sofa in the sitting room.
At first , I thought she was sleeping , so I called her , there was no
response. I went near her , with an intention to shake her awake. Her body was
very cold, I panicked , I called her again , nothing happened.
I shook her violently , hoping that she would respond , still nothing
happened, this is when , I sensed that , this was not good . I run outside the
house , opened the gate , without saying anything to my
small sister at the gate, run to our immediate neighbor. He was a good man ,
who was always nice to us. We used to call him baba Stacy. After telling him what I saw, we came
together rushing to the house. After ,
baba stacy brief review on our aunt, he called
the hospital at once . The ambulance arrived within 5 minutes. This is
when , it dawned on me , maybe our aunt might be died. Indeed, the medics confirmed to us , that our aunt had died some
time earlier as her body was already cold.
This
was my first encounter with the cruel hand of death. I kept wondering, how
could my aunt die just like that, dying like a chicken!!!! She was never sick
or complained of any illness. Could someone just die like that, without getting
sick.
From
that time , I came to know that , death is just on our finger nails , anybody
can die at any time and age.
From
that day, I HAVE BEEN A WORRIED BOY , wondering when this death could come for
me, and yet am not ready for it.
